You know that thing in your life, that you can never ever ever imagine mastering or having any semblance of control over? I want to assure you - with time, perseverance and dedication you CAN rock it.
For years I hated budgeting. Hated. Freaked out any time my husband would try talk to me about money. Felt he was trying to deprive me or control me. It's the furthest thing from the truth. My husband (SHHH don't tell him I'm talking about him!) is one of the kindest people I know. He's super responsible and dependable - which are some of the big reasons I married him.
So he was trying to be responsible with our money and I was just FREAKING out, and avoiding any adult conversation.
I've done a lot of work on myself in so many areas of my life. On my beliefs, my values, things I've promised myself. And it's really permeated and affected my very being.
And so a year ago I went back to the financial consultant we had used years ago. I made a full commitment to take care of the family's finances. Just me. Radical responsibility. It was a dream come true for my husband!
And I have shown up to my financial consults on the first week of every month. For a year.
I've arrived prepared. Honest. Open. Not hiding anything from myself or the consultant. Willing to be accountable, responsible and sometimes uncomfortable. And always willing to learn.
And I'm rocking it!!!!
I'm making real choices. Making decisions that I've ducked for years. I can't fix errors of the past, so I'm moving forward.
And I have to tell you - I LOVE IT! I never imagined that I would be walking with a bounce in my step from doing this work! I never imagined that I would feel so pumped and feel such freedom from taking this responsibility.
So my bottom line for you today is - don't give up! There's that THING in your life that sticks like a bone in your throat. It can be different. It may take time. It will take effort. The first step? Show up. Take action that can begin the process. Then show up again. No matter how much you're cringing and how uncomfortable it is.
One step forward at a time. One, then another, then another. And suddenly you'll look back and be amazed at the distance you've travelled!
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